~Pyroman48

This empty space is eating away at me, it's been months, almost years since it's bothered me, why now of all times?

I can't wake up, it's getting harder to breathe, I feel my heartbeat slipping away from my grasp, as I cling to whatever memories of a happier life I once had. Everything seems so dull, so colorless, so lifeless, I'm losing my focus, and the world fades away. I can't understand it. I use to be so strong, so calm, so patient. I was invincible, untouchable, I had no worries, and no regrets. I woke up day to day, realizing that I made my life whatever I wanted it to be, and I lived happily...or so I thought. Denial, I'm getting weaker, I can't quite grasp the cause, something is happening, my world is falling apart, the pieces are crumbling away, and I don't know what to do. My sanctuary has been breached, I've no where to run, no where to hide. It's sweeping in for the kill, and I'm losing my place, worst of all I'm losing my mind.



How can I control my pain, this anger deep within me. So many days, so many years wasted away, searching, hoping, for a better life, for some form of happiness...The memories didn't last, the came and were gone in a fleeting moment. Will anyone remember me, the real me...The person I was. I was vibrant, hopeful, a romantic, I just wanted to make someone, anyone...one person happy, so I wouldn't have to be alone in my paradise. Ages passed, or so it seemed, and the loneliness battered me like a rogue wave. I could only hold on for so long, my grasp weakened, and slowly my dreams slipped away.



I can't remember who I was, or where I came from...I know I had a purpose, I know I had a name, I had a reason for being here...But what...and why? Did anyone even care, I can't remember anything anymore, it's all slipping away in to the black hole in the back of my mind.

Where will I awaken, and will I even care?

I feel the weight of the world on my chest, crushing, breaking, tearing my life away...Everything is black, and I can't go on. I take a breath, and another...I open my eyes to a spinning world. No time, no balance, no past, but...there is light...the possibility of a future. I've been reborn, allowed yet another chance. I've no idea my flaws, or my past, but by some force in me, I wasn't ready to fall, I wasn't ready to die. I must go on, I must continue, I have to live on until there is no more fight left in me. I am the victor, the conquerer, the fallen. I have struggled for each and every second of my life, and now it's time for me to reap the rewards if there are any to be had.



Never giving up, never surrendering. Within me is that hidden warrior waiting to burst forth into the unknown, striking out the doubt, and fear, and loneliness that quells deep within my very soul. It gives me another chance at survival, another chance at life...and if it is written in my destiny..perhaps, just perhaps, another chance at happiness and love.